Mei uploaded Parts 2 and 3! =]
Part 2:
Part 3:
Thanks to everyone who was involved ^_^
Also to the many other Dreamers!~
Other photo gifts have been found as well XD
Photo by Kathy Chern @ Facebook:
Photo by Julia Jj Lok @ Facebook:
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Presents (Part 3)
More Dreamer-clips have rolled in ^_^
Mei uploaded Parts 2 and 3! =]
Part 2:
Part 3:
Thanks to everyone who was involved ^_^
Also to the many other Dreamers!~
Other photo gifts have been found as well XD
Photo by Kathy Chern @ Facebook:
Photo by Julia Jj Lok @ Facebook:
Mei uploaded Parts 2 and 3! =]
Part 2:
Part 3:
Thanks to everyone who was involved ^_^
Also to the many other Dreamers!~
Other photo gifts have been found as well XD
Photo by Kathy Chern @ Facebook:
Photo by Julia Jj Lok @ Facebook:
Presents (Part 2)
More Dreamer love!!
I can't believe you guys did this for me! I feel so special ^_^
Never thought there'd be a day when people do this for me T_T
Can't wait for Part 2~~
<3
I can't believe you guys did this for me! I feel so special ^_^
Never thought there'd be a day when people do this for me T_T
Can't wait for Part 2~~
<3
Friday, May 29, 2009
Presents? ^_^
Thanks so much for everyone's presents, which were mainly online XD
I wanted to share some of them with you~
Photo by NekoRiChan @ Youtube
Photo by Aiven @ Fan-forum
Drawing by 'StaR' @ Fan-forum
Hyeshin26's reallyyy sweet birthday tribute video for me T_T:
Thanks SO SO much, everyone!!
I'm sorry if I didn't add something you've sent me here. I'm still checking up on my accounts T_T
I wanted to share some of them with you~
Photo by NekoRiChan @ Youtube
Photo by Aiven @ Fan-forum
Drawing by 'StaR' @ Fan-forum
Hyeshin26's reallyyy sweet birthday tribute video for me T_T:
Thanks SO SO much, everyone!!
I'm sorry if I didn't add something you've sent me here. I'm still checking up on my accounts T_T
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
19th Birthday
First of all, I want to say thank you so SO much to everybody who has left me a comment here and there on my various accounts saying Happy Birthday ^_^! I feel really special receiving all your love from near and far across the world! Dreamers and non-Dreamers alike ^_^
I was actually very pleasantly surprised to hear from a lot of my old friends! Facebook sure is a handy tool XD Your love is equally appreciated =]
Anyway, as a few (or most) of you may know, I was gone for the weekend (friday-monday) for an event with some of my friends. It was...well, eventful, if there were a word for it all. A lot happened over those few days. And it was very tiring and costly.
My sickness didn't really help or was helped at all. I've gotten worse since the first night because I was already losing my voice the morning after T_T. Speaking is hard enough, not to mention singing... I can't even hit a note right =[ But I'll try to get rests now that everything's back to "normal".
So May 26 (when I started writing this post) was my birthday, and I'm turning 19. Of course, as other years, I don't feel the age just yet since it hasn't even been an entire day. But I don't know if it's because of my birthday or just some recent events that I've come to realize (or more like remember) some general things about my life.
Something came up today, well... sort of, and it wasn't exactly a happy issue. I can't go into much details but no need anyway ^^. (I'm sorry if this entire post will be a tiny bit jumpy from subject to subject but I believe they all connect in some way~)
So during dinner, after a long day of being lazy around the house (totally not birthday-like at all XD), I was thinking about the things that came up. I thought about friendship, family, trust, etc. Aside from the many comments and texts saying "happy birthday", the only one that I heard to my ears today was from my mom over the phone (she's in Socal~). That alone lets me know that in the end, it's only your own family, your blood relatives, who can be there for you to count on.
This being my birthday means that I'm a year older, and "a year wiser" as people say. I've never really thought about this much or felt so until today. Perhaps it's something that continues after you turn 18, where you start to feel the responsibilities weighing in with college and a breath of "real" life. For those minutes at the dinner table, I blanked out... I was reminded that people (including me), as humans, want too much and give too little. I can honestly admit that I've been that way many times.
Most of the time I think I'm a really easy going person, at least compared to many I come into contact with. People stress too much on things sometimes. I'm not saying that being lax is only a good thing. There are times when it caused me some troubles, but I think it's much better than holding in all the more troubles that have come my way. Forget sad things and forgive instead of hate. Forgiveness is a hard thing to give or achieve, but it's the best answer, isn't it?
I can really say that ever since middle school (a life changing time for me, if you were close to me since then), I've told myself to try to live without any regret. I tried to be forgiving to people because change is inevitable and to accept my failures because I can't always succeed.
My parents were divorced when I was three. I'd lived with my mom for most of my life, probably up until college. She's tried her best since then to provide to me as much as two parents could for their child, and she's done even more than that. She let me try to take on many interests and learn so many things, from sports to music to studies. That's also the reason why I can do a lot of things, not necessarily the best in everything, but a little in a lot with some advances in a few aspects that were my favorites. She also taught me to be stress free by letting things go. It really isn't worth the trouble (I might've taken this to the next level but ya XD). It still amazes me how she did it herself. She should be one forgiving person to let things go so easily back then and start over from nothing at all. That is my real-life example and proof of why I myself am so easy going.
Forgiveness and having no regret-I really thought I could do this. As forgiving as I can be and have been, and as I let things pass with no regrets, there will always be one thing. I thought I was the most forgiving person. I also thought times and times again that things were settled and I was set for a long way. It was only a heartbreak in the end. I've only felt so once or twice before but this time I was sure it was the real thing because I had become more aware and had already forgiven the rest. In a situation where I trusted one person so much and was so sure of the future, something that fit through the cracks had to happen to tear things apart...
I can truly say I've lost so much before. Everything was gone overnight. The "person" I'd come to trust with everything was gone. There was no one left to share anything I had left because everything was "ours". The worst thing was that it wasn't a normal thing... How many times have I wished it could've at least been some other way, because it would have hurt less and I might be okay now. It was the situations that tore "that person" and me apart. I saw changes in them in front of my eyes day by day. I'm no less convinced that "the one i love" is now "dead". It is like amnesia. No longer would she recognize me as who I was. I can see her... but we can't be talking to each other.
It wasn't the same person as before who was there. We could be the only ones in a room and not speak at all... Sometimes I could only hope that she would look at me. Sometimes I wonder if she, too, was hurt like I have been; or if she know how I am or what I'm doing. It's been longer than one year and I'm almost certain that I'm not far from being absent of existence from her.
As I said before, if it had been any other way... it might have been better off. Had something else happened, maybe I could have been upset, I could have hated and blamed her, but here I can't... I had wished for this to happen to no one else out there because it is just too much... I haven't known what else to blame but only myself. As forgiving as I can be, I can't forgive her or myself for letting my heart go like that (there are also other reasons).
(Why I sing): Actually, "that person" was the reason I first listened to Kpop. We both found out more things at the same time and shared things we liked. I learned to sing a DBSK song for her. Ya, DBSK went a way back for this ~_~. It's amazing how their songs eventually told more accurate stories of us that I can relate to.. =\ It just happened that I received more and more attention to my singing than I'd thought would gain. The origin to my dream of singing is because of this person. I want her to know that I'm still here and she will know what I've been through if she could (or would..) hear me one day. Perhaps then I won't be invisible anymore... who knows.
I also want to sing because I can bring happiness to people. On several valentine's days have I sung to couples and people with my guitar, just adding some fun to their day. It makes me happy when I can bring them another happy memory to remember by. Those memories seem so hard to come by now..
So on the day that felt the least like a birthday to me, I learned the most when I was reminded of old things because of those that are more recent. As optimistic as I can be (I believe that happiness is always balanced, and if things are going down, good things are just waiting to happen around the corner to bring it back~), my good things have yet to happen. I try to surround myself with optimistic people so I won't be dragged down again and again. I do wish there would be less stress in the world, though~
It's been 19 years for me as a person but only 1 as an adult. And yes, perhaps these are the years where I'll begin to learn more and more and things will only speed up. I can only be sure not to lose myself to anything that I can push past and end up losing more than I intend to keep... I hope to prove to the world, myself, and that person that I can be more of a person who can start from the beginning and build from emptiness.
Happy 19th Birthday, Alan Nguyen, but the 1st to Jaewon<3.
I was actually very pleasantly surprised to hear from a lot of my old friends! Facebook sure is a handy tool XD Your love is equally appreciated =]
Anyway, as a few (or most) of you may know, I was gone for the weekend (friday-monday) for an event with some of my friends. It was...well, eventful, if there were a word for it all. A lot happened over those few days. And it was very tiring and costly.
My sickness didn't really help or was helped at all. I've gotten worse since the first night because I was already losing my voice the morning after T_T. Speaking is hard enough, not to mention singing... I can't even hit a note right =[ But I'll try to get rests now that everything's back to "normal".
So May 26 (when I started writing this post) was my birthday, and I'm turning 19. Of course, as other years, I don't feel the age just yet since it hasn't even been an entire day. But I don't know if it's because of my birthday or just some recent events that I've come to realize (or more like remember) some general things about my life.
Something came up today, well... sort of, and it wasn't exactly a happy issue. I can't go into much details but no need anyway ^^. (I'm sorry if this entire post will be a tiny bit jumpy from subject to subject but I believe they all connect in some way~)
So during dinner, after a long day of being lazy around the house (totally not birthday-like at all XD), I was thinking about the things that came up. I thought about friendship, family, trust, etc. Aside from the many comments and texts saying "happy birthday", the only one that I heard to my ears today was from my mom over the phone (she's in Socal~). That alone lets me know that in the end, it's only your own family, your blood relatives, who can be there for you to count on.
This being my birthday means that I'm a year older, and "a year wiser" as people say. I've never really thought about this much or felt so until today. Perhaps it's something that continues after you turn 18, where you start to feel the responsibilities weighing in with college and a breath of "real" life. For those minutes at the dinner table, I blanked out... I was reminded that people (including me), as humans, want too much and give too little. I can honestly admit that I've been that way many times.
Most of the time I think I'm a really easy going person, at least compared to many I come into contact with. People stress too much on things sometimes. I'm not saying that being lax is only a good thing. There are times when it caused me some troubles, but I think it's much better than holding in all the more troubles that have come my way. Forget sad things and forgive instead of hate. Forgiveness is a hard thing to give or achieve, but it's the best answer, isn't it?
I can really say that ever since middle school (a life changing time for me, if you were close to me since then), I've told myself to try to live without any regret. I tried to be forgiving to people because change is inevitable and to accept my failures because I can't always succeed.
My parents were divorced when I was three. I'd lived with my mom for most of my life, probably up until college. She's tried her best since then to provide to me as much as two parents could for their child, and she's done even more than that. She let me try to take on many interests and learn so many things, from sports to music to studies. That's also the reason why I can do a lot of things, not necessarily the best in everything, but a little in a lot with some advances in a few aspects that were my favorites. She also taught me to be stress free by letting things go. It really isn't worth the trouble (I might've taken this to the next level but ya XD). It still amazes me how she did it herself. She should be one forgiving person to let things go so easily back then and start over from nothing at all. That is my real-life example and proof of why I myself am so easy going.
Forgiveness and having no regret-I really thought I could do this. As forgiving as I can be and have been, and as I let things pass with no regrets, there will always be one thing. I thought I was the most forgiving person. I also thought times and times again that things were settled and I was set for a long way. It was only a heartbreak in the end. I've only felt so once or twice before but this time I was sure it was the real thing because I had become more aware and had already forgiven the rest. In a situation where I trusted one person so much and was so sure of the future, something that fit through the cracks had to happen to tear things apart...
I can truly say I've lost so much before. Everything was gone overnight. The "person" I'd come to trust with everything was gone. There was no one left to share anything I had left because everything was "ours". The worst thing was that it wasn't a normal thing... How many times have I wished it could've at least been some other way, because it would have hurt less and I might be okay now. It was the situations that tore "that person" and me apart. I saw changes in them in front of my eyes day by day. I'm no less convinced that "the one i love" is now "dead". It is like amnesia. No longer would she recognize me as who I was. I can see her... but we can't be talking to each other.
It wasn't the same person as before who was there. We could be the only ones in a room and not speak at all... Sometimes I could only hope that she would look at me. Sometimes I wonder if she, too, was hurt like I have been; or if she know how I am or what I'm doing. It's been longer than one year and I'm almost certain that I'm not far from being absent of existence from her.
As I said before, if it had been any other way... it might have been better off. Had something else happened, maybe I could have been upset, I could have hated and blamed her, but here I can't... I had wished for this to happen to no one else out there because it is just too much... I haven't known what else to blame but only myself. As forgiving as I can be, I can't forgive her or myself for letting my heart go like that (there are also other reasons).
(Why I sing): Actually, "that person" was the reason I first listened to Kpop. We both found out more things at the same time and shared things we liked. I learned to sing a DBSK song for her. Ya, DBSK went a way back for this ~_~. It's amazing how their songs eventually told more accurate stories of us that I can relate to.. =\ It just happened that I received more and more attention to my singing than I'd thought would gain. The origin to my dream of singing is because of this person. I want her to know that I'm still here and she will know what I've been through if she could (or would..) hear me one day. Perhaps then I won't be invisible anymore... who knows.
I also want to sing because I can bring happiness to people. On several valentine's days have I sung to couples and people with my guitar, just adding some fun to their day. It makes me happy when I can bring them another happy memory to remember by. Those memories seem so hard to come by now..
So on the day that felt the least like a birthday to me, I learned the most when I was reminded of old things because of those that are more recent. As optimistic as I can be (I believe that happiness is always balanced, and if things are going down, good things are just waiting to happen around the corner to bring it back~), my good things have yet to happen. I try to surround myself with optimistic people so I won't be dragged down again and again. I do wish there would be less stress in the world, though~
It's been 19 years for me as a person but only 1 as an adult. And yes, perhaps these are the years where I'll begin to learn more and more and things will only speed up. I can only be sure not to lose myself to anything that I can push past and end up losing more than I intend to keep... I hope to prove to the world, myself, and that person that I can be more of a person who can start from the beginning and build from emptiness.
Happy 19th Birthday, Alan Nguyen, but the 1st to Jaewon<3.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
5/16 - Post-concert
Epik High 1st ever concert in the USA Map the Soul tour
one. word. = "awesome."
^If you were there, you'd understand XDD
WOW it was SO crazy and intense!!! Everyone was up on their feet when EH finally came out and were screaming like crazy!! I hope I didn't lose my voice (doesn't seem like it which is the first XD).
My arm hurts from waving the glowsticks around. hahah. I switched arms and tried everything but in the end was just like "oh forget it" and went berserk. hahah~
And wow I couldn't help but look around now and then, imagine what if one day I can do this myself--to have a concert with hundreds, thousands of fans going absolutely crazy for the music, all together in one place--it was such a beautiful thing ^_^.
Even if the venue wasn't TOO big, the crowd totally made up for it because they were LOUD! It was even louder than some auditorium concerts I can remember o.O
I probably won't forget this night for as far as I can see. What EH did up there will always inspire me that no matter what, your fans will always love you and supporters will always follow and aid you all the way because of what you do and what you contribute to their lives by giving them a taste from yours~
I don't even have to say how much of a genius Tablo is XD it was just WOW. And there was SO much talent on stage at the same time it was just @_@. hahah~
I wish I could've been closer but I left it to the fangirls. Besides I didn't wanna get trampled over. hahah~
But anyway~ I got to meet Jeanine and Justine and the group had a great time at the concert as you can tell ^_^ Jeanine's mom dropped Julia and me off at the Bart station and we headed back to Julia's house, stopped by a store for some coffee for me because I then had to drive back to my relatives' house which was 1 HR+ away T_T
I've fallen asleep before driving back o.O like for split seconds but this time I was surprisingly awake~ haha I guess it's because I was extra scared =o and the caffeine but yah~
So thank you Epik High, for doing such an amazing job (just absolutely "awesome."!) and everyone who was there and you who are reading this ^_^
It's been great fun~ lalala
Tata~
-Alan
one. word. = "awesome."
^If you were there, you'd understand XDD
WOW it was SO crazy and intense!!! Everyone was up on their feet when EH finally came out and were screaming like crazy!! I hope I didn't lose my voice (doesn't seem like it which is the first XD).
My arm hurts from waving the glowsticks around. hahah. I switched arms and tried everything but in the end was just like "oh forget it" and went berserk. hahah~
And wow I couldn't help but look around now and then, imagine what if one day I can do this myself--to have a concert with hundreds, thousands of fans going absolutely crazy for the music, all together in one place--it was such a beautiful thing ^_^.
Even if the venue wasn't TOO big, the crowd totally made up for it because they were LOUD! It was even louder than some auditorium concerts I can remember o.O
I probably won't forget this night for as far as I can see. What EH did up there will always inspire me that no matter what, your fans will always love you and supporters will always follow and aid you all the way because of what you do and what you contribute to their lives by giving them a taste from yours~
I don't even have to say how much of a genius Tablo is XD it was just WOW. And there was SO much talent on stage at the same time it was just @_@. hahah~
I wish I could've been closer but I left it to the fangirls. Besides I didn't wanna get trampled over. hahah~
But anyway~ I got to meet Jeanine and Justine and the group had a great time at the concert as you can tell ^_^ Jeanine's mom dropped Julia and me off at the Bart station and we headed back to Julia's house, stopped by a store for some coffee for me because I then had to drive back to my relatives' house which was 1 HR+ away T_T
I've fallen asleep before driving back o.O like for split seconds but this time I was surprisingly awake~ haha I guess it's because I was extra scared =o and the caffeine but yah~
So thank you Epik High, for doing such an amazing job (just absolutely "awesome."!) and everyone who was there and you who are reading this ^_^
It's been great fun~ lalala
Tata~
-Alan
Friday, May 15, 2009
5/15 - Summer Starts
So after moving out of my dorm on wednesday, the 13th, (which took 12 hours T_T) I'm now currently staying at my relatives' house in town =]
Mom's found and placed an offer on a house in town too ^_^ She showed it to me yesterday and WOW it is NICE! =o...
We'll have to stay here for a couple of weeks though until we can move in after all the paperwork is done.
I can't wait!~ =p
So tonight I'll be going to an Epik High concert in SF with Julia and a couple of her friends! =o yayy it's gonna be a PARTY!!
Hope I'll be able to take pictures =]
Boy after finals, my skin had taken some hard hitting XD but now I'm figuring new things out and it's being saved ^_^ lalala~
I don't wanna look like an old man... haha~
Anyway I'm kinda hungry now (breakfast) so I'll come back and update if anything new comes up! =]
Tata~
-Alan
Mom's found and placed an offer on a house in town too ^_^ She showed it to me yesterday and WOW it is NICE! =o...
We'll have to stay here for a couple of weeks though until we can move in after all the paperwork is done.
I can't wait!~ =p
So tonight I'll be going to an Epik High concert in SF with Julia and a couple of her friends! =o yayy it's gonna be a PARTY!!
Hope I'll be able to take pictures =]
Boy after finals, my skin had taken some hard hitting XD but now I'm figuring new things out and it's being saved ^_^ lalala~
I don't wanna look like an old man... haha~
Anyway I'm kinda hungry now (breakfast) so I'll come back and update if anything new comes up! =]
Tata~
-Alan
Hello & Introduction
Hi there =] Welcome to my blogger/blogspot/whatever else it is called o.O
I made this account a while ago but am finally updating it because it's SUMMER now for meee!! X] yayyy~!!!
So in case you have absolutely NO idea who I am or why you're here, I'll just give you some information about me:
Name: Alan Nguyen
Nickname: Jaewon (재원)
Alias (most well-known as): cityincolors
Birthday: May 26,1990
Present age: 18
Languages: Vietnamese (native), English (fluent), Spanish (intermediate), Japanese (learning), Korean (learning)
Place of origin: Saigon, Vietnam
Arrival to the USA: 2000
Current Location: Home- Southern California; College-Northern California
Instruments: Guitar/Bass, Piano/Organ, Drums
Influences: DBSK, Super Junior, Na Yoon Kwon, Sung Shi Kyung, and many others.
Idols: Jaejoong (DBSK) and Hankyung (Suju)
I love music, especially singing ^_^ I've been into K-pop music for just a bit more than a year and been singing it for about 8-9 months. I love to get my music out there for fans of artists like I am to listen to and share our interests.
There are supporters for me, as well =] They are called DREAMERS!!
I have several webpages to share and spread the word about my music. Please do check them out =]
====On this blog, I will be noting my daily (if not weekly) "adventures" and whatever comes my way =]
My friend, Julia, recommended starting one so I can record the things that may come up in the near future~
I hope that you'll be here to stay and keep up with my music as well!
Thank you~!
-Alan JW N.
My links & contacts:
Youtube - watch videos I made with my covers and songs (I mainly check here often)
Soundclick - download my songs for free (just requires registration but it's pretty quick! ^_^)
Facebook - join the "fanpage" and be updated along with hundreds of other Dreamers =]
Myspace - for classy Myspace users!
Twitter - follow me for random updates (don't worry I don't update about every single detail XD)
Forum - join my forum and share your dreams with others from various places in the world
Cyworld - my personal cyworld account
Soompi - my performer thread on Soompi.com
NOTE: If there is an account under my name (Alan JW N. or cityincolors) that is not linked from this page or from any of my other pages here, chances are they are not run by me and I might not be aware of them. Please do let me know if you do encounter these. There had been an incident where a Dreamer was contacted by someone who claimed to be me. I hope this doesn't continue to happen =o. Thank you!
I made this account a while ago but am finally updating it because it's SUMMER now for meee!! X] yayyy~!!!
So in case you have absolutely NO idea who I am or why you're here, I'll just give you some information about me:
Name: Alan Nguyen
Nickname: Jaewon (재원)
Alias (most well-known as): cityincolors
Birthday: May 26,1990
Present age: 18
Languages: Vietnamese (native), English (fluent), Spanish (intermediate), Japanese (learning), Korean (learning)
Place of origin: Saigon, Vietnam
Arrival to the USA: 2000
Current Location: Home- Southern California; College-Northern California
Instruments: Guitar/Bass, Piano/Organ, Drums
Influences: DBSK, Super Junior, Na Yoon Kwon, Sung Shi Kyung, and many others.
Idols: Jaejoong (DBSK) and Hankyung (Suju)
I love music, especially singing ^_^ I've been into K-pop music for just a bit more than a year and been singing it for about 8-9 months. I love to get my music out there for fans of artists like I am to listen to and share our interests.
There are supporters for me, as well =] They are called DREAMERS!!
I have several webpages to share and spread the word about my music. Please do check them out =]
====On this blog, I will be noting my daily (if not weekly) "adventures" and whatever comes my way =]
My friend, Julia, recommended starting one so I can record the things that may come up in the near future~
I hope that you'll be here to stay and keep up with my music as well!
Thank you~!
-Alan JW N.
My links & contacts:
Youtube - watch videos I made with my covers and songs (I mainly check here often)
Soundclick - download my songs for free (just requires registration but it's pretty quick! ^_^)
Facebook - join the "fanpage" and be updated along with hundreds of other Dreamers =]
Myspace - for classy Myspace users!
Twitter - follow me for random updates (don't worry I don't update about every single detail XD)
Forum - join my forum and share your dreams with others from various places in the world
Cyworld - my personal cyworld account
Soompi - my performer thread on Soompi.com
NOTE: If there is an account under my name (Alan JW N. or cityincolors) that is not linked from this page or from any of my other pages here, chances are they are not run by me and I might not be aware of them. Please do let me know if you do encounter these. There had been an incident where a Dreamer was contacted by someone who claimed to be me. I hope this doesn't continue to happen =o. Thank you!
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